Things I Know #5 with Mum Talks Autism

I know that the human spirit to live is a unpredictable creature that should never be underestimated until literally the last breath is taken.

I know quite simply put: ‘CANCER SUCKS’ and I wish it would exit stage left and leave me, my friends and my family alone.

I know that visitors to my home need to understand I have Autism times three and being told to get out is nothing to do with my boys not loving you and everything to do with them needed notification you are coming. I am so grateful for your understanding.

I know the Australian Summer is a cruel beast and that we have had another horrific week with fire in my beautiful country. Please let it all settle again soon.

I know that I’m honored to be the wife (ex wife) of an Australian Soldier. Thankyou to all the men and women still away from their families fighting the fight. Please come home safe Jay. I’m thinking of you more than normal of late and can’t wait till you are back home.

I know that the Australian Tax Office needs to update their system and that I’m trying to be a lawful citizen and pay my taxes. Yes ‘Blogging’ is my secondary occupation and I would like my tax return to state so.

I know that I am grateful for the boys Grandmum never forgetting a birthday or Christmas and always ensuring their is a gift for the boys to know they are thought of across the miles.

I know that watching my mum finally building relationships with the little ones is beautiful to watch and that she is trying (and asking) so hard to understand autism and how she can support this crazy clan.

I know that watching my two best friends start new adventures in their lives is beautiful, terrifying happy and sad all thrown into one. I love you pair and thankyou for letting me share your lives and your journeys.

I know I am a little overwhelmed with everything at the moment and that I need to be a better friend; return phone calls, visit and actually support my darling friend on her journey as a first time mum. I’m sorry I have not been there.

I know that the above has happened by no (or little) fault of my own but it still eats me up and I know my friends deserve better.

I know that you can’t please ALL the people ALL the time and that’s okay. I sincerely don’t care anymore and I’m letting that go. If I know I have put 110% in and that is still not enough than that says more about you than it ever will about me. I’m sorry it took me so so long to get that one.

I know that Christmas plus moving house plus school holidays plus preschool holidays plus sick family members plus 200 kilometer round trip to get anywhere plus 44 degree heat, plus chronic pain and to top my list off plus Autism times three= I’m doing the best I can do with what I have left. Which sadly at the moment is not a real lot.

I know that things are starting to get organised around here. Routines back in place, comfort zones located and flapping is settling, sleep is returning (sort of), head banging and biting is gone (for now) and slowly I am placing everything in my home where it is meant to be.

I know everything is going to be okay I just have to get there. Wherever ‘THERE’ is.

I’m linking up with Miss Cinders over at Saturday Morning Ogre Mum for ‘Things I Know.’

Don’t Stop Believing.
Mum Talks Autism

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