I can not believe that it was already months ago that I sat and wrote about how I was ‘back and ready to go’. Who was I kidding????
Myself more than anyone I think.
I love writing my blog and I love hearing from you all. More than anything I love walking through this journey that is our life with you all and knowing that I am making some sort of contribution to something, to someone, regardless of how little that difference may be.
What I have found these last few months is that I had to take the time out to make a difference in my life. In the life of the amazing young men I have been blessed to call my sons.
This is where my priority has had to be.
This is where it has been and will have to be for sometime yet.
Last month I found out that I have renal failure.
I always have had bad kidneys since I was a child and they were damaged even further when I was sick in 2010 and by the pregnancies that brought my darling boys to me. I did not realise that it would lead to this and the uncertainty of what will be my life in the future.
I see the renal team on the 1st May and we go from there. Surgery? Dialysis? Transplant? Everything is so unknown at the moment.
I am praying they will have some answers for me so I know what is around the corner. What my tomorrow’s hold and when this debilitating pain that has engulfed my restless slumber and my every waking hour will finally stop.
Everything is up in the air at the moment but I have come to know quite a few things these past months as I have pondered my tomorrows and what they may hold;
True friends are treasures that I have come to appreciate more than ever.
Children are a blessing and every moment with them should be savoured because being too sick to share them moments is heartbreaking.
Love is what really does keep a family together. A team getting through the hardest of hardest days, TOGETHER.
Life is precious…… So So very precious.
Don’t Stop Believing,